Hell and back – that’s where kp (and I) have been this week.

Monday and kp wanted to “end it all”.

Lack of sleep and severe depression had pushed kp to the very edge and it was time to “leave all this shit” (kp’s words).

Normally, I can lighten things up and swerve kp in a certain direction of thinking, but not this time.

We both sat on the sofa for a couple of hours, kp in tears and me VERY close, just hugging her. She felt she couldn’t carry on any more.

There was only one person I felt could help……..Pip.

Pip is a neuropsychologist who has done wonders for kp in the past, and without fail, has always been able to pull kp up from the lowest of slumps. She is my “joker in the pack”. And I needed to play it now. While kp was out of the room, I rang her but only got a voicemail, so I started leaving a message. Before I had got out the full message, I was crying like a baby.

I was so upset I had forgot to leave a contact number, so left it a few mins to compose myself and then still bawled out the phone number when I phoned back.

By this time, it was after 5pm, so I wasn’t expecting a return call from Pip, yet we still needed help.

So, at about 5pm I phoned Syd, Karen’s case manager. He was great. He said to “hang in there”, and he would be here in a couple of hours.

I was very pleased to have some help on the way, although to be fair, I didn’t think Syd would be able to “do a Pip”.

Syd came and within a couple of hours, he had said a few things which Karen later said had made “something click” in her.

Thank the Lord for clicks !!

And well done Syd. I don’t know where we’d be without you now.

The night only got a little better after Syd had gone, things were still bad, but the real improvements came over the next few days.

It’s an early blog this week, but already the air feels lighter and STOP THE PRESS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Karen has had 12 hours and 11 hours sleep for the last 2 nights respectively with no extra sleeping tablets or anything !!! We can’t believe it and we don’t want to tempt fate by overanalysing it, but we have no idea why it’s suddenly improved !!

So, her mood is still lower than normal, but 10x better than monday !! And with her sleep improved, things are looking positive (touch wood!).

So, that’s the week so far.

So, the rest of the facts this week….

Monday, Rachel (and Charlotte) came to do some OT stuff with kp. This is the day when it all kicked off and kp wanted to end it. It was very awkward when they were here, because getting conversation out of kp was like drilling for water in a stone ie bloody hard work. I took Bonnie to the vets in the afternoon.

Tuesday and another trip to the vets with kp attending Physio in the afternoon.
Wednesday was kp’s day off, but she still got a lot done. She made a Lasagne and it was lovely, walked the dogs (with me) and something else which I have forgot.

Today has been another positive day. Joanne came and loosened kp’s left shoulder up. I am back on the fags (yay!) and I think that has boosted kp’s mood (kp would disagree), but I personally think she missed all the little 5 minutes we had together during the day.

So, from monday hell to a lovely light-feeling thursday, things are looking up.

Watch this space !

We are going for a week in Spain from this Saturday so hopefully that will improve things further. Big thanks to Marie who is house/dog-sitting while we’re away. Thanks Marie !!