Last night, we had a good night eating Chinese. Lots of talking. Karen tried to explain to Tracy and Marge how different (in her head) she feels. She doesn’t feel that she is as much fun (in company) as she used to be. We, of course, tried to reassure her she was, but she feels deep down inside herself that she has lot a bit of sparkle.

At 12am, Tracy and I retired. Marge and kp stayed up until 1am.

Friday the 13th today, that explains a lot. Karen has been feeling really down today, despite Tracy and Marge’s presence. I feel so sorry for her. She started crying while we were getting her ready in the bathroom. She had an awful night’s sleep and I suspect some of it is tiredness, but the rest is her current mental state which couldn’t get much lower. Normally distractions help prevent such times, but they haven’t helped today.

We had another episode of crying when she joined Marge and Tracy for breakfast. This time, it was my fault. I had arranged for a plumber to come to fix our boiler next Friday, but it clashes with a lunch Karen had planned with Ronnie (not in the diary). She asked me to change the plumber. I was a bit miffed and asked her to change it. She tried to change it, but she couldn’t hold the phone and the diary at the same time when the plumber started suggesting dates and so she got upset. I felt so guilty. I can be SUCH a pratt sometimes. I don’t deserve her sometimes

She has been very quiet all day. Diane came today to give us all a massage. Even this didn’t change Karen’s general mood, but she managed to keep a smiley face for her visit.

Hopefully a good night’s sleep will leave her with a bit more energy to tackle these low feelings. And her husband is gonna try and be a bit more supportive.

Together we can crack anything……