Day 260 – Friday 13th January 2006
Last night, we had a good night eating Chinese. Lots of talking. Karen tried to explain to Tracy and Marge how different (in her head) she feels. She doesn’t feel that she is as much fun (in company) as she used to be. We, of course, tried to reassure her she was, but she feels deep down inside herself that she has lot a bit of sparkle.
At 12am, Tracy and I retired. Marge and kp stayed up until 1am.
Friday the 13th today, that explains a lot. Karen has been feeling really down today, despite Tracy and Marge’s presence. I feel so sorry for her. She started crying while we were getting her ready in the bathroom. 
She had an awful night’s sleep and I suspect some of it is tiredness, but the rest is her current mental state which couldn’t get much lower. Normally distractions help prevent such times, but they haven’t helped today.
We had another episode of crying when she joined Marge and Tracy for breakfast. This time, it was my fault. I had arranged for a plumber to come to fix our boiler next Friday, but it clashes with a lunch Karen had planned with Ronnie (not in the diary). She asked me to change the plumber. I was a bit miffed and asked her to change it. She tried to change it, but she couldn’t hold the phone and the diary at the same time when the plumber started suggesting dates and so she got upset. I felt so guilty. I can be SUCH a pratt sometimes. I don’t deserve her sometimes
She has been very quiet all day. Diane came today to give us all a massage. Even this didn’t change Karen’s general mood, but she managed to keep a smiley face for her visit.
Hopefully a good night’s sleep will leave her with a bit more energy to tackle these low feelings. And her husband is gonna try and be a bit more supportive.
Together we can crack anything……
January 13th, 2006 at 8:01 pm
Bugger me
you two are as bad as each other, we can go out to lunch on Friday, Saturday, Sunday or Monday it doesn’t matter to me.
Although I realise it matters to Karen and I think I can make a guess at why. Its because you want to be more in control, as you would have felt before the accident. But think of this, you would have said to me before the accident, ” Ronnie we are getting the boiler fixed on Friday, can we go out to lunch on the Saturday?” And I would have said fine, OK!
Anyway my belief is that the more you do and achieve the more you get frustrated. Although you may hate it Karen, that’s a definite sign that the accident has not taken away the Karen we know and have always known. We expect you to get more pissed off along the way and we all know you will improve along the way as well.
My advice would be, take your frustartions out on the exercise regime and not when we go to lunch.
As we all know, this time of recouperation, is going to be the most frustrating time for both you and David. In addition we all know this is the time you both need as much support as possible. So I will be visiting in Feb, March, April etc, etc and I don’t care if it causes a domestic, a bit of a domestic is healthy.
Thanks Dp for the text, just recieved it no problem about Saturday morning.
Take care you two
Love you both lots
Cheers
Veronica
January 14th, 2006 at 10:06 am
annpollard@googlemail.com said!
Karen – you are doing so well – you are bound to have ‘up and down’ days so keep your chin up and enjoy Tracy and Marge’s visit.
All our love JKP and APsky